Huang Zitao Vents on Weibo: “I Want to Disappear for a Period of Time”
Chinese rapper and singer Huang Zitao (黄子韬) is under a lot of pressure, and his long message on Weibo is causing fans to worry about his current state.
In his long message, the former EXO member wrote that he was “tired and annoyed to the point where [he] could barely breathe” and remarked his fear of taking days off work, as he didn’t want to impede the crew’s filming progress. With more shows to film and more dance routines to memorize, Tao is at a breaking point.
“To tell you the truth, I don’t want to do anything at this moment,” he said. “I can’t make it to the annual company meeting, I haven’t been home, [and] I could never celebrate any holidays. I don’t even know what day it is. Truly, this pressure is making it difficult to breathe. I can’t really breathe right now […] I really want to disappear for a period of time so I don’t have to think or do anything.”
The 24-year-old debuted six years ago as a member of the K-pop boy band EXO. He left the group in 2015 following a lawsuit with the group’s agency, S.M. Entertainment.
“It’s been six years and this is my first time saying something like this. I know there would definitely be people saying how you’re an entertainer and this is something you should endure. I know, and that’s why I’ve endured too much.”
Tao compared his life to that of hell, saying, “From my [life’s] perspective, I feel that my life is not that much different from a living hell. I’m not living as blissful and happily as you all think. Don’t say I’m being dramatic, it’s actually me being strong. It’s just that during this period of time, I really feel like my heart and body are so tired to the point where I can’t breathe. It’s suppressing me. I’m sorry for worrying you all. I’m even more sorry to myself.”
This article is written by Addy for JayneStars.com.