Former Miss Hong Kong, Lee San San (李珊珊), has retired from the entertainment industry for more than a decade due to her struggles with panic disorder and weight fluctuations. Advocating for better medical care and attention to mental disorders, the Detective Investigations Files 4 <刑事偵緝檔案IV> actress has been more open about her own struggles and road to recovery.
On lifestyle radio show, Mind, Your Own Business <自在想>, San San often had difficulty breathing and would suddenly feel her heart rate increase and have blurred vision during the early days of panic disorcer. She attributed her stubborn and strong character is one of the causes for the disorder.
“When I joined the entertainment industry at 18 years old, I would often deal with unhappy and unfortunate occurrences by myself. This industry is extremely high stress and high pressure. If I didn’t already have such a strong character, I would not have withstood it for so long. But over a period of time, the negative emotions piled up and eventually exploded.”
After being diagnosed with panic disorder, San San withdrew from the public eye and tried to live a normal life. However, she would often get odd stares and comments from pedestrians who recognized her. Frequent comments from strangers such as “Wow, you’re huge now, like a fat lady!” further damaged her mental well-being.
Despite the negativity, the 43-year-old is thankful for the positivity that came out of her journey. Specifically, San San openly thanked good friend, Sammi Cheng (鄭秀文), for being a pillar of support during her recovery. “The first person I want to thank is Sammi, who who pulled me back from the edge of a cliff. She would encourage me and say: ‘Don’t be scared! Even if you are taking one step forward and two steps back, we will walk this road together.’ I felt like she was an angel sent to help guide me during that time.”
In addition to Sammi, San San also named Louis Koo (古天樂), Bowie Lam (林保怡), and Kimbee Chan (甘比) for being there and giving her the courage to continue moving forward.
Source: Sky Post