The pressure of working in the entertainment industry was frequently much greater than divulged. Fans often only saw the glamorous and beautiful sides of celebrities, rather than their suffering. Similar to many celebrities facing extreme work pressure, Fiona Sit (薛凱琪) experienced severe depression. She slashed her wrist and became obsessed with suicide.
Reflecting back, Fiona now realized that she had exhibited signs of depression as early as 2008. While filming movie, La Comedie Humaine <人間喜劇> in 2009, Fiona portrayed a crazy character. She cried uncontrollably in her tearful scenes. No one knew that Fiona was taking medication to assist her depression while filming the movie.
Fiona lost appetite in food and no longer took care of her body. Fiona lived on half a cup of instant noodles each day. Her weight dropped down to 85 pounds.
Slashed Her Wrist to End Suffering
Thirty-year-old Fiona Sit entered the entertainment industry when she was 18 years old. Despite Fiona’s successful music and film career over the last decade, her personal problems became magnified in her mind, spiraling to an uncontrollable state. She felt living was no longer worthy. Her friends disappointed her. She did not wish to leave her house and face the outside world. “I always thought that I was a very pitiful girl!”
Tormented by her mental suffering, Fiona considered many ways to numb her pain. She even sliced her wrist. Another time, she ingested sleeping pills and drank red wine, which was a potent combination. Fortunately, the number of pills she took did not have a fatal impact on her life.
Made Suicide Call to Khalil Fong
One night, Fiona was seized by a strong desire to commit suicide. “I thought to myself, ‘Tonight I must die!’” In a panic over the direction of her thoughts, Fiona immediately called good friend, Khalil Fong (方大同). Fiona said to Khalil, “I really want to kill myself right now! Can you please stop me?”
Although Fiona’s plea scared Khalil, he reacted calmly. Realizing that her emotions were extremely fragile and that his words may trigger sensitive reactions, Khalil spoke very carefully. He analyzed the situation with Fiona logically, urging her to remain calm and promise not to act upon her suicidal tendencies.
Afterward, Khalil immediately alerted Fiona’s mother of Fiona’s mentality. Khalil asked Mrs. Sit to keep a careful watch over Fiona to ensure her safety. Although Fiona was initially angered by Khalil revealing her confessions to Mrs. Sit, Fiona realized that Khalil acted wisely, prioritizing her personal safety first.
Khalil advised Fiona to place her problems into perspective. Khalil said, “Actually everyone has problems. But is it worthy for you to channel so much negative energy into your problems? This world has many people who are more pitiful than you are!”
Suicide is Selfish; Finds Solace in God
Although swamped with suicidal tendencies, Fiona was unable to let go of her family ties. Considering how grievous her family would be if she were to die, Fiona sought medical help in overcoming her depression. She was not ready to end her life after all. She saw a psychiatrist and therapist for one year, while accompanied by two good friends who worked outside the entertainment industry.
The road to recovery was not a smooth one and had relapses. It took courage to look deeply within herself– a willingness to truly improve her own situation. In her darkest hour, Fiona found strength in God. A married Christian couple from Singapore became friendly with Fiona, praying to God together. With her religious faith strengthened, Fiona’s perspective in life slowly became more positive.
Fiona said, “I began to truly forgive the people that have hurt me deeply before. The hardest part was asking God to forgive me. I cried uncontrollably. While forgiving others, I had to let go of myself!”
Do Not Wait Until Death to Cherish Each Other
During her year of extreme depression, Fiona often had bitter arguments with her mother. To reduce Fiona’s emotional stress, her psychiatrist suggested that Mrs. Sit live separately. Although Mrs. Sit wished to help her daughter desperately, she moved out. For a period of time, Fiona and Mrs. Sit did not see each other.
When Fiona’s weight dropped down to 85 pounds, her mother moved back into her apartment, cooking meals to nourish Fiona’s body back to health. Fiona’s near-death situation brought her closer to her family, in which they learned to communicate their problems, while giving each other strength.
Fiona said, “I am very lucky that I did not die. I hope that each family does not have to face a near-death situation before they learn to cherish each other!”
It took personal courage for Fiona to overcome her severe depression and suicidal tendencies. Fiona found a network of support in her family, personal and church friends to heal herself. Today, Fiona has nursed her body and mind back to health. She kept an empty bottle of the depression pills that she had once taken, as a reminder of the obstacles that she overcame in the path of life.
Source: The Sun via ihktv.com
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Jayne: Fortunately, Fiona stopped her suicidal tendencies in time and found the right help. She entrusted her problems to her family and friends. If she did not confess her weaknesses to them, they would not have been able to help her. Only when weaknesses are acknowledged can we become stronger.
Each time I hear about other people’s heartfelt confessions of their weaknesses, I am reminded of how fragile or strong the human spirit is. It is sometimes a choice. If you realize that you are drowning in a state of depression, it is important to find the right help. And yes, it should not take a near-death situation to make us cherish the people around us more.