As one half of the legendary pop duo Twins, Gillian Chung (鍾欣潼) appeared to have it all. When Twins first debuted in 2001, they quickly became a pop idol phenomenon, releasing numerous records, topping billboards, and winning multiple awards.
But behind that veil of glamor and fame is a woman with regrets.
On the Chinese talk show The Real One <舉杯呵呵喝>, Gillian shared her inner thoughts about joining the industry and what inspired her to do so. She confessed that she only had one reason to join the entertainment industry—to earn money.
“I never thought about becoming a celebrity,” she said. “I joined because I wanted to take care of my family. I wanted to give them a better life.” Gillian actually doesn’t think she has the personality to be a famous star, explaining, “I didn’t know how to behave. I didn’t know how to express myself. I just didn’t know how to talk to other people. I was like this my entire life—I had more girls in my family than guys, so I didn’t know how to interact with other boys when I first joined the industry. I was scared to talk to them. People would think I’m shy, and maybe that’s because of the environment I grew up in.”
Even after 18 years of experience behind her back, Gillian said she still felt regret. If she was given the opportunity to go back 20 years, she said she would be willing to let go of everything to start over again. “I want to grow up again. I didn’t really feel like I had a youth. I want to go back and have a happy childhood.”
During the days when Gillian was most active as a member of Twins, the media would always compare her to her Twins partner Charlene Choi (蔡卓妍). While Charlene would be praised for having the higher IQ and EQ of the two, Gillian only had one praise attached to her name—pretty.
“So what if I have low EQ?” said Gillian. “That is who I am. You can call me stupid or dumb, but that is who I am.” She believes that a reason why Twins worked so well was because she and Charlene balanced well. “Ah Sa is in charge of expression, while I am in charge of action.”
Having regrets is a natural course in everyone’s lives, including Gillian’s. When speaking about her biggest regret, she said, “There is one man who I miss the most. That is my grandfather. I loved him. At the time, he lived very far away from me. I wouldn’t know if he had a doctor’s appointment, or even if he got in an accident. When I found out afterward, I felt really hurt. I didn’t have the time to spend with him. I really regret not spending more time with him.”
This article is written by Addy for JayneStars.com.